inbetween

You are between the lines in my emails
You are in the face of my coworker
You are in the laughter of a teenager on the T
You are in the peel of every banana I eat

You are in the absence of my tears
Your are in the movies I watch
You are in sporatic moment with the family
You are in the lining of my hunger pains

And yet you are not here at all

You are not here to yell at when you bug me
You are not here to cheer for BYU
You are not here to ask a million annoying questions
You are not here to copy me

You are not here to tell me how hard life treats you
You are not here to tell me about the girl crush you have
You are not here to ask the mail man to play basketball
You are not here to hug me or kiss me on the cheek

For all the moments you are not here
I thank God for all the memories I have

"Daddy"

Because even at 27 I'm never to old to call you that
Because there's only 8 of us who can
Because just thinking about seeing you makes me feel like a kid at Christmas
Because having to say goodbye hurts my heart
Because almost every memory that matters has you in it
Because you set the bar so high
Because I can feel your love and prayers all the way across the USA
Because I said it first

Anything but Ordinary

you took the time to listen when I needed it
you set aside whatever you were doing for me
you not only heard me- you actually listened
and in the right moment you talked

you sent me a text message
it was simple and on an ordinary day
what you didn't know is that I needed that
It was anything but ordinary

you stopped me in the busy hall
you looked me in the eye and spoke
you opened up your heart and began to pour it into mine
and I couldn't help but be filled

you smiled at me with your eyes
you didn't say a word but you didn't need to
I heard everything you wanted to say
thank you for your kindness

you were talking and talking but not really saying anything
and it was when you stopped that I began to hear
all the words your heart was saying to me
and the silence was beautiful and enough